Nea's fangirling

Since yesterday was International Kissing Day and I had a lovely day at Cologne Pride with leukocytes and laurelin_g I'm in the mood for a delayed kissing!spam.


( It's way out of control, But sorry I'm not sorry! )

One of my favourite 'should be but isn't' holidays! That's why I decided to go through my gif folder which took half the day, because I have more than 3500 gifs and sadly only 6 were towel related, so feel free to add more gifs/pics in the comments.


( Very random towel gifspam. Contains full front male nudity. )

I actually wanted to say more, but it took me too long to get the gifs together. *facepalm* There will be more next week.

Oh, @ my Tatort girls: I'm so ready for Lannert/Bootz tomorrow, you have no idea! *flails*

I'm doing better, so thanks for your lovely thoughts and comments. *hugs*

Have I mentioned already that I'm kinda in a writing crisis? It's not a writer's block anymore – it's a real crisis.

It started like two weeks ago when I read that fantastic Little Miss Sunshine fic. The characterization was awesome, the plot, the pace. I loved it. And usually, such well written fics inspire me to write better, this fic made me think that I'll never be able to write on such a level, so I could just give it up completely.

I'm not even jealous or anything, I'm just in awe. And I try to get over that feeling of wanting to quit, because even though I'm just mediocre to good in my better days (means when I don't suffer from writer's block, that is), writing makes me happier/keeps me more sane, if you know what I mean... I'm not writing because I want all the internet-fame, I'm writing for myself in the first place. Other people reading it is just the sweet cherry on top ;)

Were you in such a situation before, my dear fellow creatives? How did you handle it?

I haven't written a word since then, but instead started to read in a tiny German fandom, that I didn't even know existed. It's a German crime-series and I'm not even watching it, but people manage to black-out their bingo-cards with it and that made an impression on me, so I started to read it, just out of curiosity, to see HOW and now I've spent the entire week reading it all and somehow it made me miss writing and gave me confidence? Hope? Made me think that quitting would really suck.

Maybe I'll re-watch Little Miss Sunshine tomorrow, and well, we'll see what happens...

And I love it!

Also I have to talk about J. Edgar, The Avengers and X-Men: First Class ( so there will be spoilers )

Also, to all AO3 users: is it possible to make fics there only visible for AO3-members? And speaking of it, I keep forgetting my password there. Useless!

I hope the US part of my f-list is safe and Sandy didn't affect you too much. What the news are showing is terrible enough. Take care, everyone, please!

( In other news, nanowrimo )

Alles Liebe zum Geburtstag, liebe laurelin_g! Lass dich feiern und beschenken und hab nen wundervollen Tag! *drüüüüüüück*


And happy holidays to my entire f-list! I heart you all a lot!

I hit 14k last night. I wanted to hit 15k but well, story of my life. Other than that, I sometimes love what I write and sometimes... not so much... It feels rather schizophrenic at times...

More than 700 words were written that day. Which is not much at all, but since I've written tem being totally distracted, I can live with it.

Today's official NaNo goal are 20k. My wordcount is 11265 in total, so let's go crazy and say anything between 14k and 15k would be awesome to reach today, okay?

Wrote almost 1500 words and had way too little time because I had to write and send two job applications, so I'm very happy. Tired but happy.

The fic or rather the boys are leading me on a merry chase, but I love love love it!