Nea's fangirling

It took me forever but I've finally managed to write something (aka my first FitzWard fic) and now I'm looking for a beta. Just posted a request over at marvel_slash.

I'm so forgetful, it's starting to get ridiculous. I think "Oh, I have to do a post about this or that" and completely forget what it was 5 minutes later... *headdesk*

One of my favourite 'should be but isn't' holidays! That's why I decided to go through my gif folder which took half the day, because I have more than 3500 gifs and sadly only 6 were towel related, so feel free to add more gifs/pics in the comments.


( Very random towel gifspam. Contains full front male nudity. )

I actually wanted to say more, but it took me too long to get the gifs together. *facepalm* There will be more next week.

Oh, @ my Tatort girls: I'm so ready for Lannert/Bootz tomorrow, you have no idea! *flails*

I'm doing better, so thanks for your lovely thoughts and comments. *hugs*

Have I mentioned already that I'm kinda in a writing crisis? It's not a writer's block anymore – it's a real crisis.

It started like two weeks ago when I read that fantastic Little Miss Sunshine fic. The characterization was awesome, the plot, the pace. I loved it. And usually, such well written fics inspire me to write better, this fic made me think that I'll never be able to write on such a level, so I could just give it up completely.

I'm not even jealous or anything, I'm just in awe. And I try to get over that feeling of wanting to quit, because even though I'm just mediocre to good in my better days (means when I don't suffer from writer's block, that is), writing makes me happier/keeps me more sane, if you know what I mean... I'm not writing because I want all the internet-fame, I'm writing for myself in the first place. Other people reading it is just the sweet cherry on top ;)

Were you in such a situation before, my dear fellow creatives? How did you handle it?

I haven't written a word since then, but instead started to read in a tiny German fandom, that I didn't even know existed. It's a German crime-series and I'm not even watching it, but people manage to black-out their bingo-cards with it and that made an impression on me, so I started to read it, just out of curiosity, to see HOW and now I've spent the entire week reading it all and somehow it made me miss writing and gave me confidence? Hope? Made me think that quitting would really suck.

Maybe I'll re-watch Little Miss Sunshine tomorrow, and well, we'll see what happens...

I've just heard that Julie Delpy, Ethan Hawke and Richard Linklater are already working on a possible follow up to Before sunrise and Before sunset. Which happen to be like the only two films that make me cry like a freaking baby, no matter how often I watch them. I needed like half an hour to stop crying and now that I'm about to write why I love those movies so much, I'm starting again.

Both films are so charming and soft and lovely and I don't know... for the lack of a better word... perfect... But of course you can call me a silly romantic fool.

( A few gifs from both films )

So I'm not even crying because the news about a possible third part makes me so happy. I don't know. I loved the end of the second one so much, I don't want the third to screw it all up. And I don't think it can be as good as the other two. I don't want it to end like such things mostly end: in a break-up and a try to stay friends, especially if children are involved.

I want it to end believably happy, you know? As a proof that people still can grow old together in love and happiness. That this magic, this chemistry that was there from their first meeting lasts and stays. It may change/evolve somehow, but never passes completely.

Dear
dance_x_mosh, gbrosa2008, hottie55555, jasmine_shassie, jessie990800, swanando, xoxrelientkxox, zifag

Most of my posts are fangirly, but sometimes there is real life stuff in there too, so I'd love to know at least a little bit of who is reading them. If you don't feel like it, that's okay too, but I won't add you back in that case.

Please say hi and tell me who you are or why did you add me.




To the rest of my lovelies:



Do you know where your towel is, my dears?

I'm so not the boyband kind of girl, but you have to watch this!

And yes, I'm almost happier/more happy about Shane Lynch's amazing tattoos than about the cute boytouching...

Cute emo kid

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to all of you, dear f-list! May it be a good one! ♥